is this real?

that's where i am. i can't even believe that we're here. we're engaged. we're going to get married.

i just keep looking down at my left hand to confirm that this has happened. i think i'm still in shock. i obviously was hoping this was going to happen, but i was just going about my business enjoying time in the outdoors with my then-boyfriend/now-fiance.

for REAL!?

so far, we've decided on the poconos--the area that we met (and just across the river from where andy proposed!). we would like to get married next year, but a big part of that depends on if we can get a place we want when we want (e.g., i do not want to get married in Nov/Dec/Jan/Feb or any spring month). So my mom is actually calling around to some places today to see if they have any space open for August/Sept/early Oct, and if so, I guess we're taking a trip up there this weekend.

i know time might be tight to make things work, but i really don't want a 2 year engagement. we've made it this far, let's do this. i don't think i can contain my excitement and wait until 2013. Andy also noted he would be pushing his 7 year limit. Early on in our relationship, we were watching a movie/tv show/interview/something and a woman said she was with a guy for 7 years and he hadn't committed. i looked at him and said "i can't wait 7 years, so you better make a move before then." i can't believe he really took that seriously. i mean, i meant it at the time, but when things changed and he moved out here to be with me and emptied his savings and barely ate any food, how was i supposed to expect a ring at the same time? i told him he was off the hook now, but i don't think he believes me.

man, this thing sparkles. sorry, got distracted again! 

happy thursday!